My Love

Day 29. William Jeremiah Nichols

No blog would be complete without talking about how much my love has influenced me. I've known Jeremy for almost twenty one years. A lot of people have asked if we are high school sweethearts and I say no, we are 3rd grade sweethearts! Yes, we met in 3rd grade when I still loved tweety bird and chasing cats up the wood piles. Jeremy says that's when he first knew he loved me. He showed me by buying me a tweety shirt and necklace. That's when I first knew I didn't have time for boyfriends! :)

I could never, ever say enough about this man who chose to love me. He is the sweetest, kindest, and most generous man I have ever met. Now, I did not date a lot growing up or even in college. I think it was because my dad and brother were so amazing that I couldn't really find a guy that was as amazing as them. Well, I found it and more. Jeremy is the best guy I have ever met. I think sometimes it's crazy to say that after living with someone and seeing them at their best and worst but I can say that without any hesitation, he truly is the best man I have ever known.

Jeremy and I have so many memories of growing up. Memories of him paying Michael Newport to breakup with me (I was worth a mere dollar then), memories of going to prom together, walking down football homecoming court together (our first kiss-on the cheek-was on the Hector football field in front of hundreds of people!), Jeremy telling the whole English class that his goal in life was to "Marry Shasta Cole" (I was so embarrassed at the time!), our first date when we were 18 (he took me almost everywhere he could in Russellville...I don't think he wanted the date to end), the fateful email he sent me while I was living in Chicago, and our first date (as adults) that would determine the rest of our lives...

I am so thankful, blessed, and proud to call Jeremy my husband. He has to be a great guy to put up with me day in and day out. He is also the best dad I've ever known. His love for Isabel shows through his actions, words, and even the way Izzy smiles when he comes home from work after a long day. My life would be incomplete without him. He loves Jesus and shows it with his actions. I've never met anyone that loves people more than Jeremy does. He has shown me what grace, mercy, and forgiveness looks like. He often reminds me of what "Jesus would do" in the small moments. Like the way he treats a waiter or the way he speaks to a child, the way he greets a complete stranger, or just in the way he shows me grace when I'm being my worst. Jeremy embodies the characteristics that Jesus calls us all to have.

Now, I would be lying to say that Jeremy is perfect, but he is perfect for me. God truly put us together and has woven our lives together in the most awesome way. Our love story is one that is just beginning and I cannot wait to see what the next thirty years will hold. I'm sure it'll hold more children, more blessings, a few more tears, and a lot more laughter. I know that as long as Jesus is at the forefront of our marriage, we'll make it through anything.

Jeremy is the most influential person in my life. He is the best thing (other than Jesus) that has ever happened to me. He has taught me how to be a better person just by loving me. I am so thankful to call him my husband, my baby daddy, my best friend, and my spiritual leader.

Thanks, Jeremy, for being the best husband a woman could ask for. Thanks for loving me through everything. And thanks for being such an influence in my life!

Being a Mom

Day 28. Isabel Grace Nichols


I still cannot believe sometimes that I am a mom. I am not just a mom, I am a mom to the greatest kid on earth. Izzy is now 14 months old and is literally the best little toddler in this world. She has turned our worlds upside down and I am daily amazed at how fierce my love is for this little one.

Isabel is a joy to be around. I know that I am a little biased because she is my kid, but Izzy is just the sweetest, funniest, most likable kid around. She has never met a stranger and will go to almost anyone that wants to hold her. As she has started to develop her own little personality, we have found that she is hilariously funny and rarely, if ever, in a bad mood. I guess she gets those traits from her dad.

My life will never, ever be the same. Before she was born, I had some major fears. I feared that I wouldn't know how to be a mom. I feared that she wouldn't like me. I feared that I would drop her. Silly fears (okay so maybe I did drop her once but she was fine...that's okay, right?). No, I'm not a perfect mom but I'm learning that the most important things I can do for Izzy is to love her and teach her to love Jesus. I'm learning that just getting down in the floor with her and playing, giving her big hugs and kisses, and telling her I love her (about a million times a day) are much more important than buying her new toys or teaching her sign language. I struggle sometimes with working full-time, but I know that this is a season in our lives and that we are doing the best we can for her, and to always make the most of my time with her.

I can only imagine what our life will hold for the next 18 years. Time is flying and there has been more than one time I have looked at her beautiful face and asked for time to stand still just for a second. I see her growing up very day and although it's fun to see her grow, it also reminds me every day that before long she won't want to cuddle in the mornings or she won't love playing in my makeup or I won't be strapping her in the car seat anymore. It's the little things that we enjoy the most about our kids and some of my most favorite memories come in the most normal, every day moments.

My life will never be the same since becoming a mom. I absolutely love it and am so blessed to be the mom of Isabel Grace. I hope that these next thirty years will prove to have millions of little everyday moments and lots of love and laughter. I hope I can teach her to love Jesus and love others. Izzy has taught me so much and influenced me in ways on other person could ever do. She is one of the best things to ever happen to me.

Isabel Grace Nichols, you have influenced mommy and changed me forever. Thank you for being one of the thirty most influential people in my first thirty years!!!

Twins

Day 27. My bub. My friend. My twin. Brandon Cole.

I've know Brandon longer than anyone. I mean, we did spend almost ten months in the womb together, so...over 30 years now.

My brother is about as perfect as they come. It's quite annoying actually. He's tall, dark, and handsome. He's also funny, smart, athletic, and kind. He loves Jesus and loves his family. He's  one of the best dads, husbands, and even coaches in this world. He can hoop better than most, bowl the perfect strike, and beat almost anyone in a game of ping pong. Like I said, almost perfect. Oh, but I can still beat him up...or at least NEVER say mercy when he is bending my fingers back to the point of tears. You just think I'm kidding...

He's also the best brother I could ever ask for. He's always been my biggest fan, supporting and cheering me on in everything I've done. He's loved me even when I wasn't at my most lovable and I know he loves Jeremy and Izzy as well. I truly think of him as one my best friends in this world.

Brandon often calls me and quotes scriptures or gives me an "assignment" to encourage me in my faith. He loves Jesus so, so very much and isn't afraid to tell any and every one. I've always admired his boldness in his faith. I've always admired his strong faith, even when we were kids. I lived with him and Bethany briefly after I moved back from Chicago and truly saw him live his faith out day by day, hour by hour. I felt like Brandon didn't even blink when he told me that I could live with him while I looked for a stable job. And I actually loved living with them. They always treated me like I belonged and I just loved, loved being around them all the time. Brandon was also very patient with my Gracie as she tore up the house and the backyard...multiple times!

I'm not sure I could do this life without my brother. I'm so thankful to call him my  twin, my brother, and my friend. I'm so thankful for the millions of memories we have together. Memories of being just a wee one and playing cowboys and Indians (if you wanna see Brandon cry, check out the video), memories of jumping on the hay bales in the barn behind our house, memories of playing basketball and baseball together in the backyard, memories of hugging Brandon before his regional tourney game after I had a wreck and he was so worried about me he wouldn't play until he knew I was okay, memories of watching him win the championship game in the NAIA, memories of watching him hold his firstborn in his arms, memories of laughing and crying with him at my wedding (the best officiating of a wedding EVER), and memories of first showing him my beautiful daughter.

Thank you Jesus for choosing me to be Brandon's twin. He is the best brother a girl could ever ask for. We haven't always gotten along and I definitely haven't always been the best sister, but I can always call him for any and everything. I can always count him for an encouraging word, a big hug, or a funny joke.

Brandon is by far one of the most influential people in my life. He has influenced me in so many different ways, but no more than by his faith. I hope he knows how important he is to my little family. I hope some day I can be as good of a sister to him as he has always been to me.

I love you bub!

Mini-Me?

Day 26. Emma Grace McConnell.


My beautiful niece, Emma Grace is the star of this blog today. Emma has often been called the mini-version of me. Unfortunately, it's mainly because she has a short temper! Yes, she has been known to throw a few blows her sister's way (just like I did a select few times at Leanne) but she also has the most gentle, loving heart. Emma is truly a blessing from God. I love her sweet, loud (very loud) voice and her silly personality. I love the way she loves her little brother and cherishes her big sister. I love that she is always quick to apologize and quick to forgive. Like I said, she is truly a blessing from God.

Emma is five years old, going on thirteen. I have often seen myself in her these last few years. She has quite the sweet tooth like her aunt and she is also feisty like her aunt...used to be, right? I'll never forget the day I found out Leanne was pregnant with Emma. I was at camp and drove all the way home to be there! I'll also never forget when she was born and I got to hold her in my arms. Although she was my second niece, I knew there was something special about her from the moment she was born. Sadly, I'll never forget falling to me knees when I got the phone call that she was being rushed to the hospital when she was a baby. Those minutes I waited to hear if she was going to be alright was one of the scariest moments of my life. Thankfully, it was a minor issue and Emma is healthy and happy today.

One of my most favorite memories was picking Emma up from daycare when she was just three years old. I got to surprise her and I'll never forget her words when she saw me, "That's my Shasta!!" She ran to me and chattered without stopping all the way back to the car and all the way home. She truly is a joy to be around.

Emma is now a big kindergartener. I can't believe she is in school now and before we know it, her and Kyleigh will be teens and then graduating. Time is flying and I don't get to see them near as much as I would like.

Emma Grace. I love that people call you the mini-me. I love your joyful, loud, and inquisitive mind. You are loved by so, so many people...including me. Thank you for being my niece. Thank you for coming into our lives and really helping your mom through some difficult times. You are destined for great things, big things!

Emma is undeniably one of my favorite people on earth. I am blessed to have the best nieces and nephews on this planet. Emma ranks pretty high up there on my list of the 30 most influential people in my first 30 years!

Twenty Five Years

Day 25: Lori Beth Gray (Kirtley).

Twenty Five years is how long I’ve known Lori Beth. I think I’ve saved her towards the end of this thirty day journey because I am struggling to figure out a way to condense into a small blog just how much Lori has meant to me over these past thirty years. Let me put it this way, 99% of the memories I have of my head start through high school years involve Lori Beth. From head start on, we were the best of friends. We laughed together, had class together, played sports together (the Whatta years…some of my most favorite memories), vacationed together, even lived together briefly…simply put, we did everything together.

When we were young, like five or six years old, Lori and I first came up with the idea to start videoing ourselves. Cue embarrassment and perfect blackmail opportunities! From doing gymnastics (horribly I might add) to dancing, singing, and ‘talk shows,’ Lori and I spent a majority of our afternoons at her house recording ourselves being very silly. We even did the occasional radio show, too. Maybe her and I missed our calling in life! Lori’s parents still have a lot of those videos and I’m just waiting for the day they figure out a way to post them on Facebook…ahhh!

Lori and I have experienced a lot of milestones together. We graduated head start, kindergarten, sixth grade, and high school together. When I turned sixteen and drove the car by myself for the first time, Lori was there (remember me trying to back out of your driveway??? What was our parents thinking letting me drive anywhere!). Lori and I were there for each other’s breakups and heartaches, we won a lot of games together and lost a few too. We tried our first glass of wine together (big mistake), went to dances together and birthday parties too. I was a bridesmaid in Lori’s wedding and she was a bridesmaid in mine. Like I said…99% of my memories of the first 18 years of my life involved Lori Beth. I feel like I spent more time with her than I did my own siblings!

We’ve grown up and have husbands, kids, and full time jobs now but one thing is the same, I can promise you that almost no one knows me better and has been through as much with me as Lori. Without her friendship and influence in my life during those very formidable junior high and high school years, I don’t think I’d be the same person I am today.

Thank you Lori Beth for being such a great friend all these years. Thank you for your influence in my life and for keeping me out of trouble back in the day! I am blessed to call you my friend. You are definitely like family to me.

Lori is without question one of the 30 most influential people in my 30 years of life!

My Mom

Day 24: Joann Cole (aka Mom, aka Meme)

10:28 PM. That's the exact time I called my mom last night to ask her if she could come take care of my sick child last night. 7:00 AM. That's the exact time my mom left this morning to drive all the way up to Fayetteville to take care of my sick child. Now if that's not a great mom, what is? Oh, and she also cleaned our house, did all the laundry, and bought Izzy some new clothes...jealous yet?

I could not talk about influences in my life without talking about my mom. She is the center of our family and we could not function without her. She is also the best Meme in the world to Isabel, Kyleigh, Emma, Ellie, Ryker, and Jackson. All six of her grandchildren absolutely adore her.

My mom has always put us first, throughout our lives. I can remember so many times of driving hours after hours to take Brandon and I all over the country to play ball. I can remember the thousands of times she bought us stuff that we really didn't need but we wanted. No, we weren't spoiled, she definitely taught us to appreciate what we got, but we never, ever went without.

Now that I am a parent, I realize a lot of the parenting skills she has passed on to us. My mom is the "baby whisperer," she always knows how to calm a baby, put a baby to sleep, or just make a baby feel loved. I remember those first few nights as a new mom needing my mom's guidance and support, and confidence that I could be a great mom just like her.

As a kid, I didn't always understand why she did the things she did. Sometimes I wasn't allowed to do something I wanted to. Now, I realize that this was one of the best things she ever did for me. She really taught me that the people you choose to be your friends will help shape your future. As Izzy gets older, I will definitely pick and choose who she hangs out with! I can only imagine the moments when I will hear my mom's voice coming out in me.

My mom has been a huge influence on my life. I know I wouldn't be the person I am today without her. I have a lot of the same qualities as her (I may get some of my feistiness from her too) and I am thankful to have a mom that would do anything for her kids and grandkids.

Mom, you deserve so much more gratitude than I often show you. I am thankful for you and for all that you do for our family. You definitely are the glue that holds our family together. Thank you for loving Jesus and loving us. Thanks for always trying to make a better life for us growing up and for giving us so much more than you had. Thanks for always putting us first!

Joann, Meme, Mom...has been one of the biggest influences in my almost thirty years of life!

The In-Laws

Day 23: Tony, Jean, Jessica, and Sarah.

The In-Laws. Like I mentioned in a previous post, I've got some pretty great in-laws. In fact, I've written about both of my sibling's spouses. Today, I am dedicated my blog to my husband's family. The Nichols crew.

Everyone that knows the Nichols family knows how wonderful they are. Most people would say they are a fun loving crew. People would describe the Nichols family as also being loving and generous. I met the Nichols family in 3rd grade. Jessica and Jeremy were twins like me so I was immediately intrigued by them. I soon became friends with both. Sarah was a wee one then, so I didn't really know her right away. Hector is a small town, so you pretty much know everyone. The Nichols household was always welcome to anyone and everyone. Like I said, they have always been known as fun loving, but also generous. I think that's what attracted me to Jeremy all these years. He really is the most generous guy I've ever met and he's pretty fun (although his age is starting to catch up to him lol). He definitely gets it from his parents. Jean is pretty incredible. From the first moment I dated him, she has always made me feel like part of the family. I've been blessed to have a supportive, loving, and encouraging mom-in-law! 

Jeremy is a lot like his father. Tony is pretty incredible himself. Tony and I can sit for hours and talk about football. I enjoy watching it with him a lot more than I do watching it with Jeremy! Jeremy and I owe so much gratitude to Tony. He's been incredibly generous to us over the past few years and he's practically our go-to baby sitter! Izzy absolutely adores her Papa Tony! She gets the biggest grin on her face and runs to him every time she sees him.

Jess and Sarah are also pretty great. Jessica was always one of my best friends growing up and I'm thankful to have her as a friend and a sister-in-law now. Sarah is wonderful. She's funny, joyful, and one of the kindest people I have ever met. She would never hurt a fly and has always, always treated me like family. Oh, and I can't forget about my nephew and niece Nate and Emma. Incredible wouldn't begin to describe them. Nate is the most fun, happy, and sweet kid around. Emma is HILIARIOUS! They definitely have the Nichols genes! Love them!

All in all, I'd say I have a pretty incredible family. I'd say I'm also incredibly blessed. Jeremy is a strong, patient, loving, and generous guy and I know he got all of these qualities from his parents. His parents and siblings definitely helped shaped into the guy he is today.

I am so thankful for such loving in-laws. I am thankful that they have always treated me like part of the family and that they love and adore Isabel. Tony, Jean, Jessica, and Sarah have definitely been a huge influence on my life. Without them, I wouldn't be married to a handsome, loving guy and I wouldn't have a beautiful baby girl. Thanks, Nichols family, for being some of the most influential people in my life!

Two in One

Day 20 & 21: Ramsey and Ramey Emerson

Okay, so I am cheating a little today but I decided since my 20th and 21st people are brothers...twin brothers at that...I might as well write about them on the same day.

The Emerson boys.  I love these two guys. They might be twins but they are quite different from each other. And, although they've both been extremely influential in my life, it's in very different ways that they've influence it.

Ramsey Emerson. One of the kindest, most dependable guys I have ever met. I met the Emerson boys when they moved to Hector in the 9th grade. I instantly became friends with both guys but over the next few years and even into college, I became very, very good friends with Ramsey. Ramsey went to school at the University of Arkansas with me and I spent more time with him and his guy friends than I did most of my girl friends. He is the kind of guy, even to this day, that would drop anything to help a friend out. He has driven to Branson while I worked at camp to hang out with me; came and cheered me on when I played intramural basketball; drove me bananas while playing ping pong and cards; and always had a kind word to say to and about me to all of our friends. A few years ago, he married Aubrey. Aubrey is pretty amazing herself and they are such an awesome couple. They now live outside of Bentonville and are two of my very dear friends.

Ramey. Oh Ramey. We can butt heads with the best of 'em. Nevertheless, there are few men I can say have impacted me as much as this guy. Mainly because of the person he has been to some of the most important people in my life. First off, he is my husband's best friend. They have been best buds since he moved to Hector, and have been through some good times, some bad times, and some crazy times! He is also one of the most dependable guys around. Secondly, and most importantly, he is married to my sister. I cannot even begin to tell the world how amazing he is to my sister. She has been through a lot, a whole lot, and he has been the best thing for her. He loves her, cares for her, treats her like gold, and leads her. She deserved a great, Godly man and thankfully, she got it! Ramey not only loves my sister, but he also loves my nieces and nephew. Although Kyleigh and Emma are only his "step children" he loves them all the same. Yes, the girls can be tough to handle at times...but they know without a shadow of a doubt that Ramey loves them and is always going to take care of them. Plus, he is such a great daddy to my nephew Ryker.

Ramsey and Ramey are some of the best around. I am so thankful that they moved to Hector when they did. The Emersons are family. Not just Ramey, but Ramsey and Aubrey too. I am thankful for both of their friendships with me, with Jeremy, and even with my brother (Ramsey and Brandon are best buds). The world is a better place with these two guys in it and I am blessed to call them two of the most influential people in my 30 years of life!

The Founder of Breakthrough

Day 19: Arloa Sutter

Arloa Sutter is the founder and executive director of Breakthrough Urban Ministries. Breakthrough is "a Chicago-based nonprofit that partners with those affected by poverty to build connections, develop skills and open doors of opportunity." Breakthrough works with Homeless men and women and also works with youth in the East Garfield neighborhood. And, Breakthrough was "home" to me for two years while I lived in Chicago.

Arloa started Breakthrough as a place for the homeless to come for hot coffee and some lunch. She then open it up to provide shelter and services to homeless men...and eventually homeless women. After moving to East Garfield Park, she started and youth services program as well. Breakthrough is now a thriving center of hope for so many men, women, and children!

It is no secret that I love Breakthrough. I often talk about it with family, friends, and even my co-workers. My experience at Breakthrough was nothing short of amazing and life changing. I met so many wonderful people through Breakthrough, people that I've already talked about (Andrea, Bill and Marcy) but also people like Arloa...whose selfless and inspired nature led her to create Breatkhrough.

Last night was the Breakthrough Benefit (an annual event aimed to raise money and awareness for the organization) and I had hopes to write this blog yesterday in honor of the benefit and also Arloa, but I wasn't able to, but a day late is okay, right?

I can't say enough about Arloa Sutter. Her heart and passion for Jesus and the "least of these" is immeasurable to most other people. I remember sitting on the edge of my seat listening to her as she spoke at our monthly staff meetings. She definitely has the anointing of God on her. When I think of the words "executive director" and "founder" I immediately think of someone who sits in a big office and doesn't "mingle" with the rest of the staff...but that's not Arloa. She knows all staff by name and takes time to know the men and women in the homeless shelter. I'll never forget my first year at Breakthrough when I got a call from her. She asked me if I would like to go to lunch with her that week. I did, but boy was I nervous. I'm not sure why because sitting with her, chatting about life and about my experience so far at Breakthrough, was one of my most impactful memories during my time in Chicago.

Arloa is also an author (check out her book "The Invisible), a visionary leader, a doctor (holds a doctorate in Ministry), a blogger (her blog is: http://arloasutter.blogspot.com/) and last time I checked, i'm pretty sure she does urban farming and has a few chickens. She is so many things to so many people and I cannot imagine how many lives she has helped changed through her grace, mercy, and the leading of the Spirit. When I think of Arloa, I think to what Paul wrote in 1 Corinthians: ...I have become all things to all people so that by all possible means I might save some. I do all this for the sake of the gospel, that I may share in its blessings."

Arloa has made it her life's work to love those that some see as unlovable. She has given her life to being a "stronghold for the poor, a stronghold to the needy in distress, a shelter from the storm and shade from the heat" (Isaiah 25:4). And she has shown me what the Christian life is really all about. It's about loving Jesus and loving others. It's about "doing justice, loving mercy, and walking humbly with our God."

My life will never be the same since working for Breakthrough. My passion is Jesus, social justice, and urban ministry. Because of Arloa, Breakthrough has changed thousands of people's lives...including a little farmer girl from Hector, Arkansas.

Thank you Arloa Sutter for being an influence in my life. Thank you for taking time out of your busy life to make time for me back in the winter of 2008. Thank you for following the calling of God on your life and starting Breakthrough. Thank you for showing me and the world what it looks like to love "the least of these."


Funny how little you can know someone but how big of an impact they can make on your life. In the short time that I lived in Chicago, I have written three different blogs on people I met through Breakthrough. That right there is enough to say how much of an influence Arloa has made on my short life. She is unquestionably one of the 30 most influential people in my first 30 years!!!

Los Angeles

Day 18: Laura Coonrod

Although Laura and I lived in Chicago together, we first met in Los Angeles. I had just recently moved to Chicago and was sent to do a training in LA. I'll never forget sitting in a room with complete strangers, being asked to talk openly about my cultural background and history. Can you say, awkward? As we got to know each other, though, I found out that there were a couple other people living in Chicago as well. One was living on the west side, just like me...her name was Laura. We hung out the entire time we were in LA and vowed to get together once we got back to Chicago.

And, we did. Laura and I became very good friends. Not only did we go through the experience of living in a new city, but also the experience of being very much out of our element and working for AmeriCorps. Laura is unlike most people I have ever met. She's the kind of person who would give you the shirt off her back at any time. She's kind, strong, dignified, wise beyond her years, and such a wonderful friend to so many people.

Like a lot of the people I have written about these last few weeks, Laura loves Jesus. She has a heart for women overseas and has been on several mission trips to love on some hurting women. And she's wonderful at it. She reminds me a little of mother Teresa in her actions and love for the sick, the hurting, and even the dying. I could totally see Laura just up and moving to Calcutta someday!

Laura and I built a strong friendship the two years we lived in Chicago. My favorite memories of her were sitting over a good latte, talking for hours. I miss that. We sometimes randomly text each other and say, wanna go get coffee tomorrow?, even though we live hundreds of miles apart now. Oh how I'd love a good latte and some always insightful, encouraging, and sharpening conversation with Laura.

Laura was one of the people I became the closest to while living in Chicago and I still call her a good friend. Because she went through very similar experiences as me, we were able to encourage and even cry with each other as we lived out our time with AmeriCorps. I miss her wisdom in my life!

Thank you, Laura, for randomly meeting me in Los Angeles. Thanks for the coffee dates, the trips downtown to the Soupbox, the millions of cookies consumed at Letizia's Bakery, but most of all...thanks for your friendship. Thanks for being a light in my life. I thank God that he put you in Chicago at the same time as I. I can't wait to see where He continues to lead you!


Laura Coonrod is a special person and a special friend. Everyone could benefit from having a friend like her, I know I have. She is without doubt one of the 30 most influential people in my life!

Kids Across America

Day 17: Antoine and Chantel Mack


I remember a chilly afternoon, filling out a long application to work for Kanakuk Camps in Branson, MO. I had gone back and forth, trying to decide if I wanted to apply for Kanakuk or do a Student Mobilization training in Florida that summer. I loved the outdoors, sports, and working with kids; so I decided on Kanakuk. When you apply to work at Kanakuk camps, you also have to do an interview. I was nervous about the interview, to say the least! When it came time for mine, I was interviewed by a lady (sadly, I don't remember her name) but she stated that she worked for Kids Across America, a camp within Kanakuk that worked with urban youth. She asked me lots of questions, including what my desire would be to work with urban youth. I stated that it sounded good to me, but didn't have any real experience working with urban youth. I didn't think much about it because, well, I was a farm girl from an all-white, all rural, all southern town and didn't think there was any way I'd be picked to worked for Kids Across America.

Well, I was very wrong. I got an email a few weeks later offering me the chance to come work a term with Kids Across America! I was pumped, but it also left me wondering, what in the world? How am I going to relate to these urban youth? How did I get picked for this camp? I went in not having a clue that my life, my world...would be changed forever. God grew in me a love for urban youth, urban ministry, and social justice. I can remember the hundreds of beautiful, young faces that I met at Kids Across America. Some of whom I still talk to today. Some of whom have been etched into my heart forever.

I loved KAA so much that I worked there for not one, not two, not even three but FOUR summers. I would have worked longer if I didn't have to grow up and get a real job! One of the biggest reasons that I loved KAA so much was the leaders...Antoine and Chantel. Chantel was the women's leader all four years I was there. My final summer I was on the leadership team, therefore I got to spend a lot of time with these two wonderful, Godly people. When asked to be on the leadership team (which meant more time with the staff and less with the kids) I didn't really want to do it because I knew it would be a stretching time for me. I am so, so glad that I did. I got some real, hands-on experience on what it's like to be in a leadership position. Mainly because of the Macks.

Chantel and Antoine are not only great, fun, hilarious, and energetic leaders, but they are also Godly leaders. Directors that lead by example in their speech and actions. I have learned so much about urban ministry from these two. I remember a time when they had to make a hard decision, a problem had arose that had the potential to divide staff. They handled it with grace, mercy, and love and I will NEVER, ever forget that. The Macks constantly loved on, prayed over, and challenged the staff and kids...and led so many staff into a deeper walk with Jesus and so many kids into a relationship with Jesus.

I know it was only in the summer and it was only four summers, but Kids Across America and the Mack Family changed my life. I went from someone who barely knew anyone that didn't look exactly like me, to having friends, mentors, and mentees all across the states with very different backgrounds and cultures. I went from someone who wanted to be a physical therapist to someone who was passionate about social justice, urban youth, and urban education...and moved to Chicago for a couple years to chase my dreams of working in the inner city. I am who I am now largely in part because of this camp and these two directors.

Thank you Lord for guiding a farmer's kid from Hector, AR to Kids Across America. I had no idea what You were doing, but You always knew. Thank you Jesus for Antoine and Chantel Mack and their continued Godly leadership and impact on KAA 1.

Chantel and Antoine, I could never, ever really thank you guys for all y'all (my southern accent is comin' back) taught me and how much y'all challenged and changed me. You two are definitely on the list of the 30 most influential people in my first 30 years of life!

My Mamaw is Better Than Yours!

Day 16. Delta Jackson (aka Mamaw)

My Mamaw is better than yours! I have the best and coolest grandmother in the world. In fact, she is so cool that at 75 years old, she texts from her cell phone (ok so it's a flip phone but it's still a cell!). She sent me a text this morning (at 647 am...yikes!)  that said "Have a happy day. Love you."  What better way to start your morning than for someone you adore and admire to send you a good morning text?

Like I said, I adore and admire my mamaw. She is the strongest, hardest working woman I have ever met. As I mentioned in a previous blog, my father is the hardest working man I know. He definitely got his work ethic from my mamaw (and my papaw who is in his 80s and still farms). Mamaw not only has a ranch, but she also has the huge garden that she plants every year. We get the best produce and salsa (YUMMY!) from her. She is old school, for sure, so she and my mom are the best cooks I've ever been around. Jeremy is always telling me that I need to "go stay with Mamaw for awhile and learn some of her skills." Wow! Okay, if I didn't love and admire my Mamaw so much I'd take that as an insult! But, he is right. She is a great cook and can also can, sew, garden, clean (SPOTLESS), hunt, farm...she can do it all! Oh, and she also shares in my love (and sometimes disdain) of the razorbacks, which is pretty cool too!

I also admire my Mamaw for the woman that she is. She loves Jesus and she loves her family. We don't always see eye to eye (she's got some old school in her) but I admire her for always being upfront and honest about her beliefs and values. I admire her for her strength and dignity.

Mamaw and I can sit and talk for hours. This summer, I got the chance (for the first time in probably a decade) to spend the night at her house. I had such a blast hanging out over a glass of wine and good conversation. I watched her as she rocked and sang my daughter to sleep that night and praised God for such a beautiful sight. I realized, for the millionth time, how blessed I am to have her as my grandmother/mamaw.

Over the years, I have received and cherished so many handwritten letters from her. Like I wrote about my daddy, I have never, ever doubted her love for me and my siblings. I also see how much she loves Isabel and am so thankful for the time she gets to spend with her...I only wish it could be more. I think as we get older (and especially as we become parents ourselves) we began to see how awesome our parents and grandparents really are. And we begin to see just how blessed we have been. I am no exception to this. I know how blessed i've been. I know that my mamaw is better than yours. Okay, so maybe you've got a great grandma too...if you do, hug them a little tighter, okay? If you do, sit over a glass of wine (or a cup of joe) and reminisce with them. Time is flying and I know that I won't have her forever. I think I'll go call her now...reminder her that I love her and that I admire her for the woman that she is to the world and especially to our family.

Thank you, Mamaw, for always loving me. Thank you for being my role model and for always being one of my biggest supporters. Thank you for influencing me in so many ways I cannot even begin to list. You are my heart. I love you!

 Delta Jackson is undoubtedly one of the 30 most influential people in my first 30 years. Here's to many more years of laughter, hugs, and late night songs with Isabel!

 Mamaw and I at my wedding!

 Mamaw holding Isabel for the first time.

Mamaw and all the great-grandkids (minus Jackson) last Thanksgiving.

Monday blues

Okay. I didn't make it. I was unable to write a second post yesterday, I was overly ambitious and just didn't have the time (well, I did go to bed at 8:30...so maybe if I could have stayed awake long enough!).

Before I talk about my day 15 person, I must say it definitely feels like a Monday. It's rainy outside, I'm having trouble staying focused, and I'm missing my girl today. The week has just begun! Maybe I'm just already ready for the weekend. Why (apart from the obvious)? Well, let's just say one of my favorite people is coming to visit this weekend!  I'm dedicating this day to her because I am sooo looking forward to it!

Day 15: Amy Jo Allison

Amy Jo Allison. Such a wonderful friend. One of my best friends, in fact. She's stood the test of time (through college and post-college at least) and I can honestly say I am the blessed one in our friendship. We met each other my first year at UA...we lived on the same floor in the same dorm, in fact we were right down the hall from each other. God knew exactly what I needed when I moved to Fayetteville, AR. Amy Allison. See, I knew no one when I moved and was a little nervous to meet new people and seek friends. I had grown up being taught from my parents that I should seek friends that had the same values as I, not just the same interests. And, I found that in Amy. God had put me not only in the girls' athletic dorm (there were volleyball, soccer, and golf players on my floor) but also on the same floor with someone who loved the Lord. Amy loves the Lord more than most people I have ever met. From the moment I met her, I knew she loved Jesus by her actions and her words. We became friends without effort and we've been friends ever since.

Amy always puts others before her. I've seen her help others at the expense of herself so many times! She is also amazingly creative and smart. Amy worked hard in school and now is a physical therapist. She travels around the US, working at different places like Houston, Hollywood, Tulsa, and Florida. During these times, I know she has impacted so many people's lives. Like I mentioned, Amy is very creative- she did all my wedding invitations and even made a one-year board for Izzy for her birthday (all for free because she is just that awesome)!

From living down the hall from each other when we were 19 to living together briefly (while she was finishing up her PT degree) when I was 26, Amy and I are super close. I am so thankful for friends like her that I feel like I can talk to about everything and anything. I am so thankful for God putting her in my life when I needed a strong Christian friend the most! Without her, I know my experience at UA could have been drastically different.

Right now, Amy lives in Tulsa (so close!) but I beg her often to move back to Fayetteville. I haven't given up hope yet! Thank you Amy Jo Allison for being such an amazing friend to me these past ten years. I can't believe it's been that long! Thank you for being an example of Christ to so many people, including me. Thank you for all that you have done for me over these past few years!

Amy Allison is without doubt one of the most influential people in my life!

My daddy

Day 14: Wayne Cole (aka my daddy)

Okay, let me preface this by saying that I missed another day yesterday. So now I am two days behind. I better get on it if I want to finish by my birthday!

Yesterday, I got to spend the whole day with my family. We went to the football game together (the hogs were an embarrassment) and then cooked out at my house afterward. It was sort of a birthday present for Brandon and I. A few years ago, I came up with idea that every year for my bday I wanted  tickets for a razorback game...with my dad. This year was pretty great because we went with everyone...even Leanne and my mom(who doesn't like football). I sat sandwiched between my dad and Brandon because I knew they would join me in my cheering and total focus (the girls gabbed...Ramey and Jeremy ate lol). We had a blast and it reminded me of the million reasons why I love my daddy!

Wayne Cole is the hardest working man I know. He has always provided for our family and has been such a strong, positive role model for me and my siblings. My dad is also one of the best men I know. He loved his family well, and takes care of us, no matter how old we get. Izzy absolutely adores my dad. She's definitely "papaw's girl!"

My dad is pretty calm, until it comes to us playing sports. He was very supportive growing up and was the best coach we could ask for. Yes, he was hard on us, but it made us better athletes and better people. Although he worked more than any man ever should (he's a farmer), he ALWAYS had time to throw balls with me, work on my shooting form, or just go get a chocolate milkshake at Sonic with me. These days, he makes time to take the grand kids to the creek, play cards with us (the only person I really like to be partners with), and chat on the phone with me about the latest sports news.

I have learned so much from him. I can't even begin to write all of them down but I will say a few:
1.) work hard. Like I mentioned, my dad is the hardest worker I know. He has always shown us that work is important and that anything worth doing is worth doing well.
2.) love Jesus. My dad loves The Lord and always took us to church on Sundays. I can't stress how important it is in families that the husband/father be an example in this way. Most important thing a dad can do is to teach his children to love and obey God.
3:) love well. Like I mentioned earlier, my dad makes time in his busy schedule for all of us. One thing I've always known is that my dad loves me. And I know he loves my mom (he is so good to her!) and he loves my daughter. I love watching how much she loves him back!
4.) coaching. Although my dad never coached for a living, he's the best coach I've ever had. Not only did I get my love for sports from him, I also got my love of coaching from him. One of my favorite things is to coach and sometimes when I hear myself, I think "I sound just like dad!"

The list goes on and on, but I'll stop there because this blog would be the longest one yet! I love my dad. I have been blessed with a great, loving, supportive dad and I know that this is a huge blessing because in a lot of ways he has made me who I am today.

Thanks dad for not only being my dad, but also my coach, my leader, my comforter, my encourager, my challenger (all those long rides home after losses yikes!), and now...my friend. I love you so, so very much. I couldn't imagine my life growing up and now without such a strong, kind, loving man in my life.

Wayne Cole is one of the most influential people of my lifetime. Praise God that he gave me this man to call me daughter! I am a better person because of him!

The good ole college years

Day 13: Sara Klueber.

Some of my most favorite years were my college years. I'm a proud razorback alum and I have so many fond memories of living on the hill. It was during these years that I met my dear friend Sara. We met each other through a mutual friend and we became good pals immediately. Such good friends that we ended up living together my senior year and fifth year (only one semester!). Sara and I were quite different in a lot of ways but that never stopped us from being best buds in college. I'd have to say about 80% of my college memories have Sara in them. Especially the years we lived together. Sara was a great roommate...remember the dog we had for like a week? Lol!!!

I'd have to say that I am pretty blessed with some great friends. Sara is no exception. She loves The Lord and is one of the sweetest, most kind hearted people I've ever met. There are very few people, outside of my family, that I feel like I've prayed more for than Sara. She is my kindred spirit in so many ways. We don't get to see each other often, but when we do we pick up like we never left off...I think her and I could sit and chat for hours!

Tonight, Sara got to finally meet Izzy and I finally got to meet her awesome husband Stephen. We had a blast reminiscing and as we drove home tonight, Jeremy said "I can totally see why you guys are such good friends!"

Thank you Sara, for being such a great friend to me all these years. Thanks for helping to make my college years fun and memorable. I can say with the upmost confidence that Sara is one of the 30 most influential people in my 30 years!

In-Laws

Day 12: Bethany Cole

Since I talked about my brother's eldest child yesterday, I figured I might as well talk about his beautiful wife, Bethany, today!

In-laws...does this conjure up negative feelings when you hear this word? I know some people have disdain for some (or all) of their in-laws. Not me! I am blessed to have some pretty great in-laws. From Jeremy's side of the family (2 wonderful sister in-laws and a great mom/dad in-law)  to my side (Bethany and Ramey), I am very blessed. Especially because of Bethany.

I can't even begin to explain how wonderful this woman of God is. It brings tears to my eyes to think of just how much she means to me and has influenced my life. Her and Brandon have been married for 7 years. This is the first way that she has influenced my life. She loves my brother well. It is no secret that Brandon and I are super close and I am so, so thankful that he has an encouraging, loving, and supportive wife by his side. I have rarely, if ever, seen them fight and they just get along so well...probably because they both are really, really weird. :)

When I first moved back to Arkansas, I really did not want to move back to Hector. Although I  have great parents that would have welcomed me into their home, I wanted to live in Northwest Arkansas. But, I didn't have any money to live on my own. My brother and Bethany opened up their home to me. I'm sure it must have been hard to let someone live in their home with them, but they never complained (ok maybe they griped about my dog a few times) and they definitely loved on me while I was there. I know I'm not the easiest person to live with at times (Jeremy can attest to that!) but they were so great to me while I lived there. I also learned so much about marriage (I was dating Jeremy at the time) from watching and living with them. There were so many times when I saw grace extended to my brother (love him but he is also not the easiest to live with at times!) and always warm, loving attitudes towards each other, no matter the situation. She also extended to me mercy in situations that I definitely didn't deserve it (remember when Gracie chewed the AC cords up TWICE in one day???).

Another way Bethany has influenced me is in her faith. Bethany loves Jesus. It's evident in how she treats her husband, her children, her family, her friends, and even complete strangers. She often encourages me in my faith walk as well! When I think of Bethany, I think of Proverbs 31- "she is clothed with strength and dignity, she can laugh at the days to come. She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue...charm is deceptive and beauty fleeting, but a woman who fears The Lord is to be praised."

Thank you Bethany, for being such an amazing sister-in-law to me. Thank you showing me through your actions and words how to love Jesus and others. Thank you for being an example to so many people. Thank you for always making me laugh with your random and weird humor!

 She has influenced my life in so many ways and Bethany is definitely one of the people who've influenced my life the most these first 30 years.

Day 11

Day 11: Ellie Grace Cole


I love my nieces. Each one of them (I have four) have their own unique and quirky personalities. Ellie Grace is no exception. She is my youngest niece...coming in at the ripe old age of 2 1/2.  She is beautiful, inside and out, and has the most heart warming, sweet personality. Now, I may have a soft spot for her because she is my brother's first child...but I sure do love this kid. She always makes me smile and the multiple voice mails that she has sent me are always cute and somewhat hilarious (especially with B & B in the background). Ellie loves her cousins...even silly little Izzy. I very much enjoy watching them play together!

Ellie's name means "light" or "bright shining one" and this name totally fits her. I know that she is and will continue to be a light in so many people's lives. Most importantly, she is a light for Jesus (Matthew 5:14-16). I believe that someday God has very big plans for her!

I praise God for this beautiful little lady. I'm thankful for her laughter, thankful for her little personality, and thankful that she is my niece!

Ellie Grace...you are such an influence on my and Izzys life. You have changed our lives with your fun, loving personality. You are fearfully and wonderfully made in His image and God has chosen you for great and marvelous things. Even greater things than these...

Thank you Ellie!

Sometimes it's inadvertent

Day 10: October 8 Seth and Jana McCraine

Inadvertent: not resulted from or achieved through deliberate planning.


Inadvertent is the word of the day. Sometimes, what deeply effects the husband also deeply effects the wife. So, today's post is about Seth and Jana, two wonderful friends of ours that have deeply effected both of our lives. Jeremy met Seth 11 years ago in Russellville. They actually met through the Russellville Christian Center and became instant friends. Jeremy was seeking a deeper relationship with Christ and Seth became someone that he could partner with in this journey. Unfortunately, after awhile, they lost touch. Jeremy, though, since we had started dating back in 2008, had always talked about this guy, Seth, who was just "the best guy around." Numerous times he mentioned that he really wanted to get together with him because he knew that Seth and his wife, Jana, were living up here, but didn't really know how to get ahold of him.

Cue fate, or as I like to call it...God's handiwork. Randomly, a little over two years ago,  Jeremy and I were at Fast Lanes (of all places) and as we were walking around I heard the loudest laugh ever. Jeremy walked up to this guy (whom I later found out to be Seth) and practically wrapped him up in a bear hug. Seth and Jana just so happened to be on a date that night...the same night we just so happen to be there as well. Jeremy and Seth talked for several minutes while I got to know Jana. Jana and I became instant friends as well.

Since then, Jeremy and Seth constantly hang out. Seth is an amazing friend to Jeremy and they definitely live out the verse Proverbs 27:17-"As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another." Not only does Jeremy have someone to encourage him in his walk with Christ, but also someone to work out with, hunt, and just grab a coffee with. Because of their friendship, Jeremy and I also finally found a church that we both love and feel challenged/encouraged/built up at...and also where Seth, Jana, and their three wonderful kids (Caleb, Lainey, and Silas) attend.

I am so thankful for Seth's influence and friendship in Jeremy's life. I am also thankful for Jana and having another "married couple" to hang out with. It's nice to have friends that are in the same stage of life as you. This afternoon, we went to the pumpkin patch with the McCraines. It was so much fun and Izzy had a blast. Here are a few pictures from the patch...including some of all the kids together:

Izzy adores Caleb. She laughs and smiles at him every time he gets near.

The McCraine family has been a huge influence in our (and especially Jeremy's life) over the past few years. We are so thankful that God knew how important it was for Jeremy and Seth to be friends again. His desire for us is to build friendships with Godly people...and we are so thankful to have met such a Godly couple.

Thank you Seth, for inadvertently being such an influence my life. Thank you McCraine family for loving and encouraging Jeremy, Izzy, and I daily. You guys are the best and definitely some of the most influential people of my almost 30 years.

Day 9

Day 9, October 7: Cheyenne Wilson

Okay. Okay. So I know I skipped a day. It wasn't on purpose, it was just a busy day so I kind of forgot. I love doing this because it makes me think beyond myself and it also makes me think about the past and who've I've become because of this past. I'll try to do two people in the next few days.

But for today, only one person has been on my mind. Cheyenne Wilson. Look out world, Cheyenne is officially 18 years old. Happy birthday young lady, you are my most favorite 18 year old in the world.

I met Cheyenne Wilson when I first moved to Chicago. At the time, she was a gangly, smart mouthed (sorry hun) almost 12 year old. I was immediately enamored with this young lady. Yes, she was a little bit of a smart mouth, but I could see beyond the surface and saw what a beautiful, bright, and kind-hearted kid she was. Over the next couple years, we built a long-lasting relationship.  She is a huge reason a piece of my heart will always be in Chicago. It's hard to describe Cheyenne. Let's just say she is one of the most caring, kind hearted teenagers I have ever met (sorry if you lost some street cred just now kiddo). She is also one of the most stubborn, hard headed kids I've ever met too (there, is that better?). I deeply admire the strength that she has shown in the face of some adversity and hard times that she has had to endure in the past few years. I know that she is strong beyond her years and a lot stronger than I was at her age. She is also a very wise, mature young lady.

I cannot even tell the world how much I love her. So much that I think of her like my other daughter. I have offered her the chance to move to Arkansas and live with us, but she hasn't taken me up on it, yet...(the offer will always be here!)

Cheyenne, thank you for being you. That is enough. You are a light to all around you. I am a better person for having met you. I am so, so proud of the young lady you are becoming. I BELIEVE in you. I know without a doubt that God has big plans for you. I cannot wait to see where He leads you. I pray for you daily, young lady. Praise God for bringing you into this world 18 years ago.

Cheyenne Wilson is definitely one of the 30 people that have influenced my life the most.

Birthday Girl

Day 8: Andrea Williams


Praise you Jesus for Andrea Williams. Today is her 31st...uh, I mean 29th...birthday. Since it is her birthday, I am dedicated day 8 to her. Andrea is the kind of person that changes your life. She is my very best friend in this world. I have a lot of friends, but not very many people that I call my best friends. Andrea ranks at the top. We met back in 2007 when I first moved to Chicago. One of the many reasons I loved Chicago was because I met her. You know those people you can tell anything to? That's her. I consider myself a pretty private person and the only other person besides Jeremy that knows practically everything about me is Andrea. She's was the FIRST person I told that I was pregnant (besides family) and the first person I call when I have a fight with Jeremy (ha...sorry babe). She's the person I call when I need advice about work and the person I call when I'm on a long drive and need someone to chat with. I would give my left arm for us to live in the same city. I miss our long talks over coffee and cookies at Letizia's Bakery. I miss our girls' vacations to Colorado and South Carolina  I miss our late night runs to Oberweiss for ice cream. I am so thankful for technology, though. Thankful that I can call, facetime, Skype, facebook, tweet...you get the picture...any time I want. Real, true friends are hard to come by. Andrea is one of the smartest people I know (I mean, I did just find out she made a 32 on her ACT back in the day...wowzers) and she is also one of the kindest, awesomest people I know as well. She worked for Breakthrough for many years and just recently moved on to become a teacher at Biedler School in East Garfield Park (a neighborhood on the west side of Chicago). She dedicates her life to children in that neighborhood. She gives so much of herself, always has, to guide, teach, and minister to them. I am so thankful for the opportunity to meet Andrea. Thankful to get the opportunity to see her teach and love on children in East Garfield. She showed me what inner city ministry looked like. She befriended me when I knew no one in the city. She listens to me moan and groan about my husband and doesn't judge! HA! She gives up her weekends to hang out with me when I come into town, and becomes my chauffer as I ask to be taken to all of my favorite restaurants. She truly is the epitome of a good friend. Thank you for showing me what real friendship looks like Andrea!

Andrea Williams has definitely been one of the most influential people in my life. And, I know that in 30 more years, she will still be. She's just one of those lifelong friends. I think you'll see us someday...gray-haired, with a few wrinkles, smiling and laughing on the beach somewhere, enjoying a girls' weekend away from the husband, kids, and grandkids. I can't wait!

Friends are forever

Day 7. Brittany Greer and Jennifer McMurray.

Okay, so truth is, friends aren't always forever. Life happens, people change, and we move on. It's hard to grow up, become a wife and parent, and try to balance all of that with still trying to maintain friendships. Thankfully, Jennifer and Brittany, are two women that I have been able to continue good friendships with. Both these girls are friends that, no matter how long we've been apart, we can still get together and talk like we see each other every day. We've known each other since the college days, when there were no husbands, no fulltime jobs, and definitely no kiddos. Through all the changes, we are still friends today. So thankful for them and our girls' nights. Thankful for girls' nights because sometimes they help me stay sane. Thankful for lifelong friends. Who go through life with you . Through good times and bad times. Through firsts and lasts, breakups and lasting commitments. There have been some highs and some lows since moving back to Arkansas. Definitely one of my highs has been being able to reconnect and live life with these two beautiful (inside and out) women. Jennifer and Brittany are awesome people whom I am so thankful to call my friends and some of the most influential people in my first 30 years of life.

Oh and ladies, we need a girls' night soon!

Tired tonight

Day 6: Leanne Emerson

I'm tired tonight. Exhausted actually. Being a working mom is tough stuff, that's for sure. I've only been at this thing for 13 months but I sure am tired. Which brings me to day 6 of my 30 day journey of thanking the 30 people who've impacted my life the most. Because of how I'm feeling, I'm dedicating today's post to a super mom. This super mom also happens to be my sister, Leanne Emerson.

As you may have read yesterday, Leanne has an 7 year old, Kyleigh, a 5 yr old, Emma Grace, and a baby boy, Ryker. I honestly don't know how she's done it over these past 7 1/2 years. First off, I have RARELY IF EVER, heard her complain about being a mom and working full time. In fact, i told her a few months into me going back to work that she didn't prepare me...she actually at times made it look easy. She is one of the best moms I know. She manages to love her kids well, keep a spotless (yeah her house is so clean it drives me nuts), love her husband well, and I'm pretty sure she manages to cook dinner every night. I'm not sure how she does it!

I will admit that I admire her more everyday, especially as I've gotten older. Not only for being such an awesome mom but also because she is one of the strongest women I've ever met. Leanne has been through a lot over these past few years, but she has just gotten stronger. She has shown me what to do in the face of extreme adversity: turn to Jesus. I saw my sister go through some crap that she definitely didn't deserve and she didn't fall, she didn't break down, she didn't lay down and give up. Now did she struggle at times? Sure. But she never wavered in her faith, instead she grew stronger in her faith and was a true example of strength to so many, including me.

My sister is better than yours! Ha! I have countless memories, tears shared, laughter shared, angry (usually me) words shared, secrets shared...life shared. There is nothing like a sister. She is truly one of my role models and definitely one of my best friends. Thanks for always being there sis. Thanks for always  being willing to give a helping hand. There are very few people in this life as kind, sweet, and loving as you. I am so, so thankful that God chose you to be my sister. I am so very thankful that you are my friend, too. You, Leanne Emerson, are definitely one of the 30 most impactful people that have been in my life these past 30 years. Here's to 30, or 40, or 50...more years. Love you big sis!

Family

Day 5: October 2nd Kyleigh McConnell

What would I do without my family? I am so blessed to have a really awesome family, and this includes my oldest niece, Kyleigh Brooke McConnell. She is such a great, fun, sweet kid. I'll never forget the day I found out I was to be an aunt. That was one of my most favorite memories ever. When I held that little (really little) red-headed bundle in my arms for the first time, I couldn't believe how much I already loved her. Now, don't get me wrong, she's about as stubborn as they come (I guess that's why she's named after me) but I wouldn't trade her for the world. I have some pretty good stories of neither of us giving any ground and becoming very frustrated with each other (yes me as an adult and her a toddler). But one thing I have learned from her is a little bit of patience can go along way!

She is so smart and the best big sister in the world. I really enjoying watching her grow up. I don't get to see her near as often as I'd like, but when do, I'm amazed at how much she has grown up over the past couple years. I know being a second grader is hard, but she handles it with such grace and joy. I am so very thankful that Kyleigh Brooke made me an aunt 8 years ago and I love her more now than I did then. You are definitely one of my favorite people on this earth and I can't wait to see you grow up into a beautiful, confident young woman. I'm always here for ya, kid. Thanks for being so awesome and being one of the most impactful people in my first 30 years!

Whoops!

Apparently I haven't gotten smarter as I've gotten older. I just realized that I started a day early and will have had 31 days instead of 30 if I continue every day. So, I've decided to take today off. Instead, please enjoy a few pictures of my wonderful, beautiful little girl. She's such a mess!

Izzy is obsessed with being outside. Yesterday, the back yard wasn't going to cut it! So, after exploring and finding lots of grass to pick and leaves to destroy...we went to the park for a little exercise and swinging:

I guess she was tired after all the fun:

Oh. And she made Jeremy and I a little gift at daycare. She knows the key to my heart: